Ms. T is sharing her journey

Posted on 28. Apr, 2013 by in Uncategorized

Ms. T is traveling on an amazing weight loss and healthy lifestyle journey.  She is so insightful and brilliant! I have known her most of my life.  We are so very lucky to have a peak inside. She will be sending journal entries throughout the month. Here is her first one. Grab a cool drink, read, digest then read again. You will LOVE it! 

Why Now?

I am 46 years old, why actually try and lose weight now?  The answer is very simple because I am ready.  I have never been small or petite.  However when I look at photos from high school and college, I don’t see the overweight person that I recall feeling like.  I see someone who looks healthy, happy and not overweight..but I never felt that way.  Since I didn’t feel  happy and healthy, I developed some coping mechanisms that in hind sight were not too helpful.

                1.  People need to like me for me not how I look.

                2.  Don’t do anything outside of your comfort zone because if you fail people will assume it is because of your weight (this ranged from going out on dates to trying new adventures like skiing).

                3.   Become the best success in what you do well and forget the rest.

 So that put me on the track of working really hard in my chosen profession, which was plenty stressful , and making sure to never do anything that caused me to grow either physically or socially.  I became more and more successful in my career but likely that was the only place I felt comfortable and secure.    When my career took me place of high stress I didn’t have exercise or hobbies to work through those stresses but I did have alcohol and food.  Plus it fit with my coping mechanism, my true friends liked me regardless of my weight and if others didn’t well  they simply were not worth my time.

 Fast forward to getting married –apparently at some point I did go outside my comfort zone and dated but not a lot and not often.  I met a wonderful guy and got married and had a baby all in the course of 2 years.  I had a great pregnancy, exercised every day, no alcohol and lot’s or broccoli J .  That was 10 years ago.  I continued to work, I had a couple of huge projects at work that lasted years and were incredibly pressure filled and dealt the stress the same way..no exercise, no hobby, just food and alcohol.

 Now-I am 46, I am  ready.  I have achieved as much as I want to professionally.  I  recognize that people do like me for me.  I have missed a lot by only staying in my comfort zone and there are a whole host of things I would love to try.  Paddle boarding, skiing, snorkeling and horseback riding but need to lose my “shield of armor” a.k.a. weight to make it fun.  I also see my child struggle with weight issues and the best way I can keep my child active is to be active.  So that is why now.  I am stepping out of the comfort zone, I am putting myself in a very vulnerable place and I can only look towards to future and envision myself being successful at this endeavor.  

Ms. T. 

One Response to “Ms. T is sharing her journey”

  1. Tina Griffith 30 April 2013 at 6:57 am #

    Good for you! You can do it and Rock It Mom is the perfect resource to help by providing support and guidance. I’m 40 and starting a similar journey, happy to do it together with you!

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